Here I am

Here I am. Now i've started. I am truly on my way. I can see several paths in front of me when just months ago i saw none. I see my life changing. I can feel it changing. I sense the change and i embrace it. I have no qualms about my decisions now. I have apparently made all of the right decisions in the past as my prelude to where i am now.

I've started my life and i love the feeling. I love being able to do the things that i want. I love having the freedom to think about doing more. I am in a place where i can enjoy myself. At least for now i am in this place. Here I am.

What do some of these paths have at their ends? What lies in wait around the corner? What should i be planning for next? In the past these questions would have frightened me. Now i embrace them. What do some of these paths have at their ends? Maybe something great. Maybe something beautiful. I will walk these paths. I will turn these corners. I will set my goals as i need to set them while i'm here.

For once in my life i know what it means to be happy. I feel happy. I am healthy. my family, for the most part, is healthy. My friends are doing well. I hold no hate from within. I seek no vengeance. I have no desire for revenge.

I am able to display my scars now. They are a part of me. They represent me, and my experience. They constitute my character. My weaknesses and my flaws are a part of me as well. I am who i am for a reason.

For once i feel like i am able to turn my negative energy into something positive. I feel like i am able to succeed in any endeavor... Here I am. I am happy.