So maybe

so maybe it's not about falling but really having good timing. finding the person that 'fits' well with what you have going on. It is sometimes hard to know exactly what in the hell is happening most times when two people begin to get to know each other. There is an attraction. A desire to be close the other. To sometimes want to touch each other. thoughts keep drifting over and over about future and the times that might be. Plans start getting made for those times in the future.

we as humans know this attraction. We know when we are falling for someone. It is an amazing feeling. It is the exact opposite of the break-up time. although some break-ups are moreso of a wanting to be with the other person but knowing that you cannot be. Some break-ups are of the nature that you do not want to be around that person. Breaking up and falling in love are two animals of the same type. They deal heavily with the emotions that we humans both want and loathe.

to feel that unending despise of a relationship gone sour. That is some of the worst emotional pain ever. It takes time to heal from. And eventually that pain, and the sour taste go away.

to fall in love is to be happy. To be positive and to have that lover's smile on your face. Time can kill this mood. It is up to the individuals to keep this happiness alive otherwise, that sour taste will eventually creep back in...

Falling

That wave of excitement crashes over you. The nervous energy bubbles to the surface. The longing, and the desire mix together into a stream of lust. Not nearly sexual alone, but a true desire to be near that person. To have them close. To hold them. These are the tell tale signs of "falling" for someone. the singular focus that i have been so mesmerized by shines through. I have only been truly focused a handful of times in my life... most of those times i was in love. Some of those times i was vengeful, and only once was i determined to succeed. It is no wonder to me that i often times am afraid of love. To be emotional, to let my inner thoughts out. For me that lack of control is daunting.

these are some good thoughts. keep this rawness in mind.