That wave of excitement crashes over you. The nervous energy bubbles to the surface. The longing, and the desire mix together into a stream of lust. Not nearly sexual alone, but a true desire to be near that person. To have them close. To hold them. These are the tell tale signs of "falling" for someone. the singular focus that i have been so mesmerized by shines through. I have only been truly focused a handful of times in my life... most of those times i was in love. Some of those times i was vengeful, and only once was i determined to succeed. It is no wonder to me that i often times am afraid of love. To be emotional, to let my inner thoughts out. For me that lack of control is daunting.
these are some good thoughts. keep this rawness in mind.
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