Revealed

It's funny how some things are revealed to us over time. I keep coming back to the same thoughts about last year and what was going on at that time. I keep thinking "i'm lucky." things could have been much worse off for me and they aren't right now...

I am looking downhill at this year. I can see the finishline and i can see the new start waiting for me. It is an amazing feeling knowing when your suffering will end. It is a slightly frightening feeling knowing that your next step might hold some new suffering.

through my old ways i was able to find out about a person from my past. She was vital for my sanity and survival last year at this time. I revealed my feelings for her later on, but it was not to be. She is officially with someone else now, and it looks like it will be a lasting thing for the both of them. I wish her happiness. I also wish to see her face as she sees me return triumphantly--unexpectedly.

To return to the scene with the dust brushed off. the old mold broken, and the new one being forged..... As if the Count was revealing his true identity.

I have decided to become somewhat more selfish in my life. I NEED to do the things that i want to do. More importantly i need to find out what it is that i want to do. I think i will leave that for another blog.

for now, i wish those from my past good will, and happiness. If you can find it without me then you are truly blessed. If not then you fucked up. Ha. Oh well.